Walking Barefoot in Snow

This is what it feels like to be a whole person.......Knowing when i need to depend on my friends and loved ones for help, and knowing when it's okay for me to stand on my own and keep things to myself. It's okay to leave things and people that don't fit me anymore behind.  It's okay  to miss them, and occasionally remember them fondly - yet not have them be a part of my present life.  It's necessary in order to move forward. Now isn't the time to stand still in place and wait. Now is the time for growth.  Achievement.  "Flourishing"

Today feels like a half way decent day, with nothing making me cry, or shake, or feel upset.  I have reason to believe this streak will last for a while, as it's been happening more and more, much to my surprise. There are bad days, but they are nowhere near as bad as they were.  And they pass quicker.  I can have full conversations and not only not bring him up, but not think about him.  I have stopped comparing every interaction with a male to him.  I have stopped hearing his voice in my head, yet he still appears regularly in my dreams. I feel him.  And he isn't happy.  And i can't say i'm surprised. Yet, his unhappiness is no longer my concern.  Right?  My close friends are furious that i would even have a conversation with him.  "you aren't his friend, he doesn't deserve you, this will only hurt you, remove him from your life completely".....I hear them, i understand where they are coming from - hell, i agree that he doesn't...