i did it, took the initiative and applied for a lateral position where i work. I don't have the degree to go any higher. I love my current job, but i've been catching on to the fact that my whole program is on the chopping block and they are just waiting for my boss to leave first. I sure as hell am not going to be the one to tell him that all his work is going down the chute. It is an incredibly intricate and difficult program, i'll say that. And i know it inside and out. Saying that, not one person from that office has invited me to a meeting or inquired about my suggestions on how to simplify it. I am the pee on, and work with leadership. They make random decisions and changes and don't think to ask the person who is doing the work. I spoke to my "new" current boss about what my position will look like when my "old" boss is officially gone. No one knows what is going on, but everyone insists that i don't have to worry about ...
the past couple of nights have been doozies! Tossing and turning, waking up fully awake and ready to rock and roll in the middle of the night. It's going to catch up to me. Probably when i least need it to. Dreaming a lot about work. I will feel much better once we have passed into July - and i have made the cut and someone has agreed to finance my paycheck. I feel so out of control and pissed off that the SOM just decided they aren't paying for me next fiscal year *poof. Everyone tells me not to worry that of course i'll have a job but .........i'd be insane not to worry. My contract was with SOM. I'm basically free floating at the moment. FML Here's the thing, finding work at my age will be near impossible because they expect me to retire within a few years. AND they won't want to pay what i would expect to be paid for my experience. Mama isn't working for free and giving up the knowledge. Sorry. ...