Walking Barefoot in Snow

 Blocked Mr Cigar on Friday.  Everywhere.  Done. It's not flattering to have a man completely shitfaced calling me while he's DRIVING trying to tell me that i want him.  No.  Actually.  I do not. And if THAT situation wasn't enough, his GF sent me pictures of the aftermath.  He projectile vomited literally all over the house. Who does that?  That was done on purpose.  And she cleaned it up.  Spent all night doing it while she texted with me.  The man couldn't stand when he pretty much crawled into the house. That is disgusting behavior.  Me? I would have grabbed my shit and left.  No WAY would i be taking care of his mess and his animals. It's been very enlightening talking with Mary.  We've been filling in the blanks as it were.  I don't need to know, but it's very helpful in supporting my self control.  He is not a nice man.  He can be, when he turns it on, but so can serial killers.  Found out c...

 I went from ending this years program to finishing up another important program that needs to be completed before fiscal year end.  I had 2 days notice.  I've been busy. Between that, working with Kevin to get it completed and moving one boss into another office in a different building, clearing out his part of his current office and then setting up my new bosses office.......it's been a busy week. No i did not expect to be doing any of this again.  HOWEVER, i'm getting what i want.  I work remotely 2 days a week, and the price i pay for that is flexibility.  I do what needs to be done.  I'm the go to, the one that when they don't know what to do, i find out.   Mind you, all providers, in other words, Doctors.   I run with wolves. and so far, hold my own.  The right amount of respect, balanced with my sense of humor and ability to get shit done that they can't be bothered with. Got my raise.  eh.   Yesterday whi...

 Having a puppy is definitely like having an infant, except puppies are mobile.  Constantly.  Potty training is a nightmare so far.  He piddles everywhere and because he is so close to the ground i don't know if he's peeing or just standing there until he walks away and "whoops there it is".......ughhhhh Everyone has advice.  Yesterday when i arrived home he greeted me at the door.  How?  Because he had busted out of the gate i had up blocking him into the very pee proof and puppy safe kitchen.  I hadn't locked the latch and this puppy figured it out. Smart ass. So today, i made sure it was latched and locked.  If he is anything like Miyagi, he will literally crawl over the top of the gate and drop himself over to freedom.  If he DOES do that, he has earned it.  I'm more worried about his safety than my floors.  Floors can be cleaned.  OVER AND OVER again.   We've been working on the biting.  I take his coll...

 Back to the office today.  Leaving Koda "locked up" in the kitchen broke my heart.  His favorite place is in front of the sliding glass doors in the living room.  He can't even see that from the kitchen.  He screamed, and screamed, and my soft heart wanted to let him out but he doesn't have a crate and it's not safe for a puppy to roam the house while no one is there to monitor him. So scream he shall, until he stops.   This is the first time letting him be unhappy......booo. No LIKE. It may explain the mood i'm in.  I can't care about anything involving men, or the potential of them being around me, or not.  I don't care.  It's nothing but work and disapointment. And yet i keep interacting. What if I just don't? I have to tell this new guy that now is not the time.  I'm just not ready to date, or kiss, or even THINK about being involved with another man while i still have the dust unsettled from Mr. Cigar. I did text with Mr. Ciga...

 I have never had a puppy.  Miyagi was 2 years old when we found each other.   Koda is a baby. I have barely left the house since his arrival.  My whole world has been about him. And work.  I was approved to work remotely 2 days a week leaving me 4 days at home with him each week. I haven't yet found out what the 3 days alone will be like for him.   In other news...... Mr. Saybrook is back with a vengeance, stalking my social media pages.......asking me to go for a ride along the shore.....trying to bait me.  Another player.  Another womanizer who can't be honest about what he is looking for.  The last i knew he was madly in love (according to facebook) and now......he's after me again.  Not because he wants me.  Because he wants ANYONE.  He was always a flake.  I don't answer him. An interesting development from the past....I used to run a very popular room on KIK during covid.  If it had been a bar, or a r...

 Jennifer is bringing me a puppy today.  He was left on her co-workers doorstep along with 3 siblings, way too early to be taken from their mama.  She brought them to the vet, bottle fed them and gave them away when they started to eat puppy food.  This little man decided he wanted the bottle for an extra week so he was the only one left.  He has been dewormed (something i never knew had to happen) and has gotten his clean bill of health as of yesterday.  Now he needs a name, which Jen and i will decide tonight.  We are co-parenting.  Poor Doug had a heart attack when he thought this little boy was coming to live at his house.   I'm not a fan of normal names.  Miyagi was named so because he had soulful eyes and a little white beard. He fit his name.  He was the bestest boy ever.  And now.......i'm going to do this again.  I've never had a puppy.  Miyagi was 2 when he came home with me.  They are placing this...