Today i am struggling. Since i found out in February that the SOM will no longer be financing it's portion of my salary due to changes they are making regarding the program i coordinate.....that has nothing to do with me, yet EVERYTHING to do with me........I've been on edge. Being at work and not knowing IF you have a job when the boss you were hired to work with on this program is retiring, or almost worse WHAT your job will become if you still have one.......is torture. And "they" the powers that be, don't seem to give it a second thought. Just "you don't have to worry, you will have a job"......as if that is all i need to know. Would they come to work every day and give it their all if they didn't know what department they were working for or what their chain of command was? And no one seemed to think it was very important? When outside companies come in, or when leadership begins to restructure, ambiguous positions at my level are not ...
It's hot. We knew it was coming and here it is. Overnight we went from cool to roasting. Welcome to new england. I slept like crap last night. I wish i knew what the difference is. What makes one nights sleep so sound and the other so restless? Although, the sleep was so deep the other night i really had difficulty getting up and went back to bed and slept deeply for another hour. I wondered if i had drugged myself somehow? So it's hot and i'm bothered. I haven't laid eyes on Mr. Cigar in over a week. this is aggravating to me, however, i am aware that he is crawling with work and already getting ready for the next season. Yesterday he was telling me about the salt they use (liquid) on commercial properties and how they are projecting a shortage....everywhere is a guessing game. Buy a lot now and where do you store it? Don't buy enough and possibly don't have access when you need it.....or pay out ...