There's nothing. Not a thing i can point to and say "there, thats the red flag". Is THAT a red flag? They say you have 3 loves in a lifetime. First is idealistic, then hard love, and finally grounded love. Since the breakup with Darryl over 10 years ago, i've dated a LOT. I've become infatuated with a couple of men, and only really felt anything similar to love with Carlos (later identified as limerence) and Bill (reinforcing that i must love myself first) Yet, how can it be called love when the object of your affection does not return the feeling? Maybe i needed more lessons on hard love? Regardless. I've been talking to Marine man for ONE WEEK and i feel like we know more about each other in that short time than i have learned about during my entire relationship with others. And maybe its because we don't talk about past relationships or dating experiences. We talk about now, about our likes/dislikes, passions, fears, goals.....
I need to slow my roll. I haven't been talking to Marine man for a whole week yet and i look for his messages for that dopamine rush. I like the way he talks to me. He sometimes slips and calls me M'am. I mean, i've been called worse. Last night he was wrapped up in the news, watching an elite hostage rescue team in Tuscan regarding the Nancy Guthrie situation. There was no distracting him, however, i did get my own personal updates from him. Get the bad guys. He's not just a retired Marine, he's a GRUNT. I'm not entirely sure what that is, but put simply, he's a badass. A genuine, trained Badass. And he likes me. HOWEVER, we have not set a date to meet yet. He says "soon", and I flat out asked him if he was involved with someone and he reassured me he is not, and has not been for a long time. Calmly and directly, without any attitude. You know, like a grown up responds to possibly rude questions....