Maybe i'm going to die soon and my past is revisiting me to make amends? First, Bill pops up again (predictable) Then Mr. Tattoo reaches out for some flirtation before disappearing again Those are the only two men i've remotely attached to since my breakup over 10 years ago. Can't really call them relationships since it mostly went one way. Me to them. Them not choosing me. I have dated a few men more than once, really, i have! Theres Mr. Tickle (i can't remember how i referred to him before but we dated on and off and he has a tickle fetish). He pops up as viewing my stories and my linked in. He's engaged to the woman he was with for years before dating me (apparently on the side)....so what NOW? And today, Mr. Saybrook, the guy that needs someone to move in to his house so he can pay for it, sends me a message on instagram. He was another one, couldn't stay with one woman. We dated a few times, i saw all the signs of being love bom...
I have no patience. I have been working on besties project for 2 weeks now and last night i thought i was finished. The plan i had in my head was finished. But it doesn't look finished to me. And I see all the places i made mistakes. It looks like a kid did it. Now to be fair, i only JUST started watercolor painting within the past year. I didn't take classes, or do anything besides fool around with it, and watch some shorts online to technique. I'm not a good rule follower. I felt the same way about Jens gift and she loves it. Still talks about it and shows people what i made for her. So it can't be that bad, or she is supporting her special needs friend. (eye roll) Making a gift for someone is......a labor of love. I hope she loves it. Thats what last night was. Home, read for about an hour, heat up leftovers, finish besties project, read, bed. Fall asleep at 8:30pm, wake up at 10, 12, 1, 2, 3, 4 and 5:30am before finally giv...