Last night i was sewing a cloth and bag for my cards and STRENGTH kept popping out of the deck. I hear you. I got it. I understand. The strange part is i can look at his picture and still feel love. I feel love for the feelings he evoked in me when he chose to. And I also feel emotionally regulated now that I know it's done. No more up and down, or having bombs thrown into my lap. No more having to make difficult CONTRIVED choices. I can breathe. I got a lot of work done yesterday and today I believe i will complete my project, on time. I'm savouring it, not knowing if i'll ever be doing this particular program again. I don't know what is coming down the pike at work, but i DO know I will roll with it for as long as it serves me. I've decided to stay where i am given that choice. There is no need to pursue MORE work at this point in my life. I'm on the downside.....not crawling to the top. Effort should be put...
Ramblings of a 50something woman