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work is crushing

 I went from ending this years program to finishing up another important program that needs to be completed before fiscal year end.  I had 2 days notice.  I've been busy.

Between that, working with Kevin to get it completed and moving one boss into another office in a different building, clearing out his part of his current office and then setting up my new bosses office.......it's been a busy week.

No i did not expect to be doing any of this again.  HOWEVER, i'm getting what i want.  I work remotely 2 days a week, and the price i pay for that is flexibility.  I do what needs to be done.  I'm the go to, the one that when they don't know what to do, i find out.  

Mind you, all providers, in other words, Doctors.  

I run with wolves.

and so far, hold my own.  The right amount of respect, balanced with my sense of humor and ability to get shit done that they can't be bothered with.

Got my raise.  eh.  

Yesterday while working with Kevin he noticed my notes on my desk and said "is THAT your handwriting?!" to which i responded "at least I can read my own handwriting" because He can't.....lol  He told me my handwriting shows that i'm an incredibly giving and open person.

I love my research geeks.  So much.  he drives me crazy the way he trys to rush ahead and answer his own questions, but i'm getting used to it.  He's married and has lunch with his sister who also works here i believe.  He has dogs and a cat who fights fox.  It's nice to work with a normal person along with my bosses.  He's also a doctor but when i tried to call him that he freaked out.  "JUST KEVIN"

okay then.

today is a busy one and then home to Koda.  He did better with potty yesterday because i was on him like glue and brought him out every 15 minutes.  (i set and alarm)  When he pottyed i made a big happy deal about it.  He had one accident, which i cleaned up but did not comment on while he watched me.  The biting is getting better.  He does not like it when i hold his collar but he settles almost immediately.  Probably because he knows i will let go when he is still.

This is hard.  Sometimes i feel like i'm being mean.  But i have to think about his future behavior and if i want him to travel and be with me all the time he needs to be trained.

Miyagi was a different dog.  Almost a human.  Koda is definitely a puppy and adores me with those eyes and follows me like a literal shadow.

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