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Koda

 I have never had a puppy.  Miyagi was 2 years old when we found each other.  

Koda is a baby.

I have barely left the house since his arrival.  My whole world has been about him. And work. 

I was approved to work remotely 2 days a week leaving me 4 days at home with him each week.

I haven't yet found out what the 3 days alone will be like for him.  

In other news......

Mr. Saybrook is back with a vengeance, stalking my social media pages.......asking me to go for a ride along the shore.....trying to bait me.  Another player.  Another womanizer who can't be honest about what he is looking for.  The last i knew he was madly in love (according to facebook) and now......he's after me again.  Not because he wants me.  Because he wants ANYONE.  He was always a flake.  I don't answer him.

An interesting development from the past....I used to run a very popular room on KIK during covid.  If it had been a bar, or a real place, i would have made lots of money.  But it was virtual.  I met a lot of really cool people during that time (online) and some still remain my friends today.

One man who i really don't remember, reached out to me on TikTok and because he showed up in my messages as someone in my contacts, i responded.  As we chatted he told me how he knew me, and mentioned a few people that we know in common.  He told me his name, so i looked it up in my phone contacts and sure enough, he is there.  He sent me a picture and it matched the one in my contacts...not the same one, but the same man.  So we've been texting and he's been calling me.  Wednesday night we are meeting for a drink.

It pays to not get rid of contacts and conversations ...thats the second time this has happened.  We never dated.  We were supposed to go out, but he got the flu.......and i thought he was married.  He wasn't.  It was a very busy time in my life.

I guess my life is boring to anyone on the outside right now, but it is full overflowing for me.  Between Koda, my grandchild being born in July and my granddaughter who i don't see as much as i would like.....my friends, my family, my sanity.   My life is full if not overly exciting.  I'm peaceful, low stress (aside from regular, expected stressors) and i'm happy.


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