It's been a while - I keep wanting to write a new entry and then i just don't. So here i am, sitting on my unmade bed looking at my apartment, in it's final stages of being dismantled, after a year of putting it together "just so". I'm moving. An opportunity was offered and I jumped at it. Even though i love where i am, am happy where I am, will miss where I am. I came full circle here, in the nest i created. And now i'm going to leave it. Ugh. I must be crazy. For so long I haven't known who I am. Where do my likes start? My wants. They've always been tied into a man, or in pursuit of a man.....a partner. I've always been afraid of being alone. Wanting to make every decision with someone. I never learned how to just...be me. Everyone tells you this, it should be common sense, but until it clicks for you it's all just words. Words that mean nothing because you can't understand until you suddenly, do. Years a...