I will wait for you there, alone

I tried to write a blog entry about all the bullshit that has been going on since your death Heather. 

First i lost internet connection and it didn't save.

Then, i hit the wrong key and everything disappeared and i couldn't get it back.

I get it.  I'm listening. 

I'm letting it go. 

Thank you.

Sometimes i hold on too long and too tight, but you helped me let go.  So thank you for that too.

You were right, my life is better and i am different and i do deserve more.  So did you. 

I didn't appreciate you for so long, but i'm grateful we connected during these last few years.  I wish i had loved you longer.