Flu and GLP1

 I don't advise taking both of these shots on the same day.

Side affects from my GLP1 are faigue in the extreme, like it's difficult to keep my eyes open yet my sleep is disruptive.  I can't STAY asleep and i can't STAY awake either.  Last night i went to bed by 8pm knowing Tom woud call me around 10ish on his way home from work.  So i got a few hours of solid sleep but the rest of the night was a shit show.

Even Koda was disturbed.  Every time i woke up he was on the side of the bed looking up at me. No wonder i'm beat today.\

I've been re-organizing my crafting stuff again.  Consolidating and making it easier to grab and go in one shot.  It makes me more likely to actually work on projects.  I told Tom to bring his project, what he can, so he can work on hiss stuff and we can still spend time together.

Thats the thing.  He always comes to me because of his living situation.  I like having him and also the boys sometimes spend time here but it seems unfair to him.  He has things he needs to get done too, and projects he wants to work on (stay tuned we are expanding that together) but because of his living situation i can't go there.

I asked him where she thinks he and the boys are when they are here........she doesn't ask,  Doesn't care.  That wouldn't fly with me. The boys are never in a hurry to leave, which says a lot too.   It's definitely not a happy home nor has it been for a very long time.  I just can't imagine my whole family disapearing every weekend OVERNIGHT and not caring enough to even ask?

There always has to be some kind of conflict or complication .  As much as i stay out of it, by being nuetral when the boys talk, or Tom talks about how their life has been lived for the past 10 years....The trauma that has occurred.......because of drug use and the people who are addicted.  Not sure why these people have kids (my ex, his life in) so selfish.  

In the meantime, and it won't be for a long time, i'm remaining quiet.  I'm just watching how this all plays out and paying attention.

We have an overnight away planned in November with the boys. They haven't stopped talking about it since i brought it up. Tom says they never did things like that before as a family.  It's always been him and his boys.  Just them.

I'm not looking to save anyone but at the same time, all i have to do is live the life i'm already living and include them......it's easy on my end, and apparently easy for them too.  I worry that they will feel conflicted and at the same time it's not fair they haven't experienced a family night away....