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okay, fine.

 I just got a text that made me smile like a goof ball.

Okay, fine.  I've been talking to someone for a couple of weeks.  

I honestly don't think it's going to go anywhere.

He lives in friggin Iowa, closer to Nebraska.

Met him in the facebook group for over 50 singles.  We have bantered since the beginning, raised a little bit of hell in the room egging each other on.  And then we'd always say "sooooo far".  

One day we ended up private messaging, then exchanging phone numbers, then calling each other.  We can't seem to shut up.  We call them dates and they last for hours.  I walk around with my earbuds in and he is sometimes working, sometimes at home.

He drives a truck.  Local now but long haul for most his life.  Has also been a bouncer on and off.  He is fun to talk to, has the same sense of humor I do and it never gets boring.  We've been telling each other our life stories, what we want to do when we retire and HAVE NOT BEEN TALKING SEXY.  

I never even had to re-direct him.  He just seems to like talking to me.  And I like talking to him.

But.  Iowa.

We haven't made any plans to meet, yet I have peeked at how much airfare would cost.  It's not cheap, certainly not something that would happen a lot.

It's been a slow burn, and again, nothing I thought would turn into anything when we started talking.  The distance.  He is 61 and a Republican.  and he lives in IOWA.  

Makes me laugh.  a LOT.  and I get him rolling too.  That seems to surprise him.  

Anyway.  How the hell would something like this work?  He's not going anywhere with a house and a job.  I'm not going anywhere until I retire in 10 years.  Its pretty much doomed.

He isn't texting me morning noon and night, saying good morning and goodnight, doing all the low effort crap I can't stand.  He texts me to see if I can talk, then he calls.  And then he tells me he'd like to talk to me again the next day.  It's nice.  And I'm not bored.

No I'm not putting any weight onto this, considering we haven't met in person.  We've seen pictures, we've picked on each other....but could be a catfish who knows?  He sure sounds like he's from IOWA.  AND he did meet another woman in the group this summer and they posted pictures.  He told me he was interested in her, but it wasn't going to happen.  Me being me, I made sure that was true, then told him I had talked to her.  He said he was surprised I hadn't done it sooner.  I don't like messy.  I don't want someone else's problem. 

She lives in New York.  I like her a lot, she is the founder of the group and a riot.  We have talked about meeting up when I go into the city.  Thats how much I like her. She told me he is a gentleman.  Said she didn't think he was my type because no tats, no bike....and I've kept that in mind.  Maybe he's just a man like I'm just a woman. 

And that wasn't even an issue.

Talking to myself here - because he sent me a text that started with "MB...." and it made me warm and smiley.  

I remember another 61-year-old Republican who made me warm and smiley. But that was based on sex and only sex.  Which I have accepted.  Even though it pisses me off.

Won't make that mistake again.

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