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A repeat of fuck off

many months ago I was on a dating site for about 2 days and I started talking to one particular gentleman and we decided to meet.

I gave him my number, we talked, texted, set up said date - nothing unusual.  The day of, he contacted me and said "a project deadline" had come up and he had to work, could we reschedule.

This was a weekend, mind you.

I had been dreading the date, as I normally do with a stranger, and took the opportunity to decline a reschedule.  (Also, I'm not dumb or desperate) 

He kept texting me trying to talk me into going out - said I was "overreacting" ......because I declined?  My alarms start going off.  Why does this man care so much?  Big deal no date.  So what?  We never met.  Move on.  I stopped answering, he stopped texting. 

About a month later he reached out to me on Linkedin.  Gotta love linkedin.  It's a wealth of information.  I told him, I wasn't interested.  Said I was seeing someone.  That usually works, and it did. 

Now, today, I get a comment from someone on TikTok and because his name and number are still in my phone (I keep everything) it showed me his real name.

He's not the first one to keep reaching out.  Men I've dated in the past who I haven't remained friends with FOR A REASON reach out periodically like they are fishing.  Why.  Why do men do this to women who have made it clear they aren't interested?

There are men out here dating and sleeping with several women at the same time, Married men thinking they are slick and trying to cheat with women trying to DATE and then there are the guys that circle back like clockwork.  

What is going on with you guys?  Are you alright?  

I text an ex every time I get overwhelmed and confused over a man, just to remind myself that I WAS IN LOVE with a guy who never wanted a relationship with me.  And here I am again, trying to NOT fall in love with another man who gives every indication that relationships are kryptonite......yet, we are exclusive.  What the actual fuck is going on with males?  

You want it all, you're afraid to miss out on the next best woman, you can't let go of one you never had, or you think we all want to steal your souls and/or freedom. 

But women are fucked up.  


THIS woman wants nothing but peace, freedom, companionship, fun, good sex and a man I feel safe with. What the hell is wrong with any of that?  

I'm supposed to be jealous? do your laundry? remind you to pay your bills?  Fuck off.  

And this random man that never met me and keeps reaching out........you fuck off too.

And the ones that keep trying to circle back for a repeat of disappointment.....PLEASE JUST FUCK OFF.

That's all. 

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