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PEACE







After careful consideration, I have decided to withdraw my application.

There.  That was easy.  Now I can return to enjoying my life and being enveloped in peace.

Focusing on what is real and present in my life is the sane way to live.  Lets try that for a bit, shall we?

This weekend can't come soon enough.  I am so looking forward to working on my 2025 bullet journal (finishing touches) and getting my grocery list in line with eating healthy.  I'm listening to an audiobook "The book of doors" by Gareth Brown and reading "All the Ugly and Wonderful Things" by Bryn Greenwood.  Still staying away from the true crime podcasts for a bit. I've got some cleaning and relaxing by myself to do.  Besides the bullet journal I have a few projects that hopefully I will have time to dip into.

Hell, I might just sit and stare out the window with a cup of coffee.

The point is, it will be peaceful.

..........i have an addiction to blankets and candles.  Recently, I've run out of candles however I purchased the most softest furriest heavy blanket for my bed that I literally cannot wait to get back into with my book.  I heard it's going to be cold this weekend, so perfect timing!  

It's a stay in the house and hibernate type of weekend where I shut off the world and live in my very own.  I'll be refueling, recentering, recalibrating....all the re's.  

I hope you enjoy your weekend as much as I'm going to cherish mine.

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