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i'll say fuck whenever i want to, thank you.

 i have nothing of importance to say.  I just like drama.

hmmmm.

Tell me how you really feel.  

I wouldn't want to be around someone like that.  

or around someone who feels comfortable saying that with no provocation.  

I love it when someone expresses a strong opinion about me just for the sake of saying something nasty.  

There was a time when that would have hurt my feelings.

Instead i said "that was rude. i didn't deserve that" which i felt was quite civil.  It was an opportunity to explain just what the fuck the point of that statement was.  More importantly, it was an opportunity to roll it back and apologize.

I talk too much and i say nothing important.

That sounds like someone elses problem.  


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