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 I think i understand the concept of talking to many, and dating a few.  I'm not currently sleeping with any! lol  No plans to either.

It makes one man less intense.  The focus is more spread out, and you start to notice who is interested and who is breadcrumbing.  You see it from a birds eye view.  It IS less personal and perhaps it should be.  Instead of focusing and paying so much attention to one man, if he's calling, if he's asked you out, if he is flakey............it just automatically shows up in comparison.

This is the way to do it.  Take your time, talk to a few guys and see who is serious and who just wants attention. 

Work is exploding and i'm trying to find my sweet spot, where i can do the best and be indispensable. In other words i'm all over the place, jack of all trades.  Hoping everything will settle when the fiscal year turns and they HAVE to figure out who is paying me, if at all.

Last night I came home and had every intention of putting the laudry i did on Saturday, away.  Instead, i started rearranging furniture and wall decorations again.......made some changes i've been thinking about and now i have to fix holes in the wall.  I think i'll buy some peel and stick wallpaper for one wall in the dining room, and paint the rest which includes the living room.  I can have the windows open all day soon so i'm going to start looking.

Yes, it's an apartment, but i've been going through a major change of style.  I want to have less, but still feel cozy.  Purposeful.  

I owe everyone money, so getting that big girl matching bedroom set isn't happening any time soon, but paint and wallpaper?  that i can do.

I'm going to be here at least 10 more years, if i manage to keep my job. 

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