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 My eyesight is going fast.  Today i have an eye appointment and we'll see whats going on besides old age.  I sit at a computer for the majority of the day and then i usually have my face in a book or on my switch at night.  I've been pretty lucky, only using my glasses when i'm driving at night or maybe at a concert or movie due to distance.  I have been using cheaters for a couple ol years now once in a while, but now i have them scattered all over the house and at work because i'm blind without them. 

I do NOT hang them around my neck.  A line needs to be drawn somewhere.

Last night i had a horrible headache and i was flat out beat up.  I started falling asleep in my recliner at 5pm so i made myself some dinner and gave up the fight and went to bed.  My daughter texted me at 7:30pm and i didn't see it until this morning so.........i definetly needed that sleep.

The cat caught a mouse at around 4am and decided she was going to keep bringing it to me.  That was fun.  I thought maybe i would get up but then, the alarm went off at 6am and pulled me out of a dream.  And now i'm sitting here wishing i could go back to bed.

Whats up with that?

So i will force this protein drink down my throat and start the work day now.  Tonight Rob is calling at 7:30 so hopefully i'll be able to stay awake until then.  We are going to figure out what to do on Saturday.  

Isn't that nice?

I think so.  

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