Politics

 Absafuckinlutely not.

I'm just going to enjoy the last days of life as we knew it for as long as it lasts.......it's pretty damn obvious there's nothing i can do about it.

Aside from being kind and doing the right thing within my microcosm.  Remember?  No one can control how you respond but yourself.  

Believe no one.  Trust, no one.  Just live your life in the way you know is kind (which costs nothing) and when you see someone being "not" kind.....step up for the underdog.  Per usual.  That hasn't changed.

I think of my friend Sue, who passed on, and her without fail direction "HONEY, put your red lipstick on".  Little did she know how important that would be.  I listened to her then, and i'm listening to her now.

If you know, you know.

In other news.  I had the second date with Rob.  We both cannot seem to shut up.  Talk talk talk.  It's easy but there is a definite undercurrent.  He did give me a little kiss goodbye.  Which is good, because i would start to wonder ..........I do enjoy this pace.  We are getting to know each other, and finding a lot of common beliefs and interests, along with talking about things we don't have in common.  He has a backbone.  I like that.  

I will say, men who have been to therapy are much easier to talk to.  They are very much in touch with their feelings.

But they still get nervous.

I wonder how this will work out.  I have felt literally no stress, no anxiety......i mean, i'm not sure, but i'm open to finding out.  I enjoy the time we spend on the phone and in person but he is still on his very best behavior.  Time will tell.

He is strapped for cash, like i am.  Thats the only thing i'm concerned about, but, that seems to be just about everyone now. He takes care of his bills and his lifestyle and that is one of my "standards".  Lets just say it's on my radar.  it' a yellow flag. 

And i carry the same color flag so.......

Oh!  he did say he never wanted to remarry so THAT took a huge load off my back.  Some of these guys want that......and that's not something i will every do again.  I will never be legally responsible for someone elses behavior EVER again.  My finances will not co-mingle.  There is no reason for it.

Some lessons i've learned are indeed written in cement.

:)