and then that happened

WOW.  Life changes in the blink of an eye.  

I went from thinking i was in love on Thursday to finding out the guy i was dating is a complete twat on Saturday.

Heres what happened.

Friday, being 4th of July and us both having the day off, i erroneously thought we would spend some time together, that maybe he would include me in his plans.  BUT he told me he was going shooting and to the range picnic and then another work picnic.  His work.  at the company he owns.  

No invitation to attend.

NOW, to go back to last year, I realized how not serious Mr. Tattoo was about me when he went to an event that he could have taken me to, but chose not to.  And then, when i asked him if anyone had asked him if he was seeing anyone, he said "no, because i'm not"............and there was literally no way i could ignore or misunderstand any longer.  We were done.

When Mr. Cigar chose not to include me I said "self, he isn't obligated to invite you and maybe he has his reasons"  in other words.......leave it alone.  No i didn't like it, Yes, i felt bad about it but NO i didn't say a word.  Did it feel strange? yes. 

I talked to him Friday morning, everything is fine.  I don't hear from him all day, of course. Then he calls me Friday night and I wonder if he's got a few drinks in him.  Maybe, maybe not.  But he's hyper as hell, to the point that i jokingly ask if he's on coke.

He of course denies it and acts like i'm crazy.  Okay, fair enough.  However, he then goes on the long diatribe about how he can't find a woman "at his level" to date, and how hard it's been, and he can't expect any women to be "at his level".......while i sit there listening asking myself who this motherfucker thinks he is.

And then, I said very calmly "So you think you are better than me because you have money?" and he said his usual response "You aren't listening to me", so i then repeated verbatim what he had just said about dating a woman "at his level".....and again, he denies. So i ask him to explain and he says the same exact shit.  Like repeating himself 5 times will explain and I'M the DUMMY.  

Knowing this is going nowhere, and feeling like I don't like him very much at all- I end the call.  BUT NOT before he tells me everyone who lives in the city is shit.  I feel like the top of my head is about to shoot off, and i say, "My daughter lives in the city" (to explain context, i was leaving Saturday morning to go see her and thats why we were talking about the city)......and he says, "your daughter is a liberal, and all the liberals live in the city"............and i think to myself "is this man special needs?"  And i end the call.

And i think to myself "i don't like him".  and i think "he's a fucktard" and I think all his ugly just came out.  And he can fuck off.  And then i go to sleep literally hating him.

I wake up in the morning and  get ready to leave.  He must know i'm pissed because no good morning, no phone call, nothing from him.  But he's on facebook.  He's awake per usual at the crack of dawn.  

I can be an asshole.  Especially when spending time with one.  And understand that any respect i had for this man is dwindling quickly.  So i text him and say "GM, maybe today you will meet a woman at your level".........in my head taking a shot and also reminding him of the ugly shit he was saying the night before in case he wanted to APOLOGIZE in the light of day.

His response?  "Whatever"

Now he isn't just an asshole he's a stupid asshole.  Stupid asshole men say "whatever".  I know this from experience.

To which I say into my voice to text "enjoy your day".  In other words fuck off but classier. 

HOWEVER, by the time i looked at my phone again to see if i had any more fun texts from him, I realized it had sent "Enjoy your date"........which makes zero sense.

It happens all the time.  To everyone i  text with.  I say one thing, something else comes out and i don't realize until it's sent.  This man will break up with me because of this text.  If thats not the lamest excuse ever.  He was trying to get me to break up with him and instead he latched on  to that typo.

So now, because until that morning i had entertained thoughts of LOVING this man, i call him so we can be good before i leave for New York.

He has me blocked.

No more texts will go through, and my calls go directly to VM.  

So i message him on FB, where i can see he is online, and then this happened:

Which i opened as soon as i parked my car in NYC.  So, i sat there looking at his breakup text and started laughing and crying.  A man can make a lot of money and still be a fucking pussy.  

He broke up with me, via messenger.  

Blah blah blah, i am now in the city and i'm not ruining my visit with my girls because of some asshole.  I put it aside and go spend a perfect relaxing day with my daughter and granddaughter.  I fill up on love and family and i sleep like a baby.

But then when i wake up and the girls are still sleeping .....my anxiety kicks in.  Did what happened in the past two days really happen?  So i reread the texts, i reread the messenger.....and he has deleted his break up message.  Because he's changed his mind?  LOL no way.  Because he doesn't want anyone to ever see what he did.

Well surprise mother fucker.  Screen shot is an AMAZING insurance plan when dealing with a fucktard.

(and yes, potty mouth and all of it is meant 100%)

Now i send him a message because remember, i too, enjoy asshole status..........I say "Did you really break up with me in a text message?"  BECAUSE he was obsessed and disdainful over a woman he dated for 2 weeks that broke it off with him via text message.  Double standard anyone?  

He calls me, and attempts to act as it all of that did not ever happen.  

Because remember, he thinks i'm stupid.  And not at his level.

And i don't let it go.  During out conversation he did not own any of what he had said, it was all in reaction to me, because i'm negative and a doomsdayer.  (which he obviously doesn't know what that actually is)  He said he didn't want "anyone" to hate him or think he is a bad guy..........

I almost burst out laughing, but i started crying.  And i told him through my tears that he didn't get to say the things he did, and break up with me the way he did, and think he was a good guy. I told him he was in no way a good man.  Because i know he wants to be so badly.  And never will, no matter how much money he has.

And i'm sharing this here, and i shared and talked about every detail of what happened to my best friend and to my couple friend so that there is NO WAY in HELL i can make an excuse and end up back with this flaming asshole again.

I thought he was different.  Just like i think every guy i fall for is different.  And they aren't.  They are the same kind of guy, the guys i fall for.  They are self centered, egotistical and do not give a damn about anyone elses feelings.  Mr. Tattoo drifted and ghosted when i wouldn't settle for a situationship and Mr. Cigar let all his ugly out, instead of just breaking up with me when he realized he COULD NEVER BE AT MY LEVEL. 

At least he broke up with me and i can clearly understand the depth of his disregard which i suppose is kinder than Mr. Tattoo, or my ex Bf.

Oh and the ex bf.  Blocked.  His crazy ass baby mama and him both.  8 years later and i could give two big fat shits what their drama is.  I don't care.  He doesn't deserve my understanding or attention or anything else from me.  He gave all that up when he turned me in for the nightmare he lives now.

good fucking riddance.

And Mr. Tattoo..........he can go fuck himself silly.

And Mr. Cigar......well, lets be honest here.......he CAN'T fuck himself silly, so lets just say he should never STOOP to contacting this woman again.  BLOCKED.

And yes, therapy to discuss why i fall for the douchebags i fall for is in my immediate future.  Trust.

The good part to this story is I have proven to myself  that i still have the capacity to fall in love (and the sense to back my ass right out of it again)