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Karma is gonna be a bitch

 and it continues, even with no contact because i've blocked him from everything.  

I had to think about if i was going to write about this.  That clues me in to how a woman will react when she feels unsafe, or as if she is in the presence of a predator.  We question ourselves instead of responding.

Whatever you need to do to survive, that is what you do.  There is no wrong way.  

So this is going to be vague and maybe not make a lot of sense, because i can't explain the "how".  All i can say is that i'm very grateful for  the information because even in that short amount of time my head was played with.  Because of my previous experiences, i caught on, but not fast enough.

This man lies.  a lot. about everything.  His social media presence is in direct opposition to how he actually lives his life.  "he's so positive".

Positively psycho.

This man........told me a big story about every woman he's dated/had a relationship with.  This in itself should have been a huge red flag but i'm a listener.  I love a good story.  I myself, have proven that my picker is broken, so while he told me his stories i took them as experiences, not lies.  Why lie about that?

Because it would make him look very bad.

He left his 11 year relationship when his terminally ill girlfriend was diagnosed.  IN HER TIME OF NEED, he bailed.  And if that isn't bad enough, when he later visited her in the hospital at the end of her life, supposedly all he did was talk about how wonderful his life is, and how happy and in love he was with the woman he was with.

Because THATS not fucked up.

That was probably the worst thing i learned about him and lets keep in mind, I'M NOT LOOKING for this info....it's coming to me.

My intuition that he was not exclusively seeing me has also been confirmed.  Only 3 months.  Not a lot of time.  But all those "fell asleep" nights.....yeah, no.  He had other women parading through his house, also thinking they were the only ones.  

Sigh. Typical dirt bag. 

If a man tells you you are crazy, or discounts the feelings you are getting - just do yourself a favor.  Break up with him just because of THAT.  Don't bother.  Honestly, save your time and energy.  Save your self doubt for something worthy.  I can't make this shit up.  

The worst part, is that he appears to be this charming, funny, edgy man that has his shit together.  I'm thinking the WHOLE thing is an act.  And maybe this man is drowning in his appearances......

Not my problem.  Yet another lesson.  When we are dating we WILL come in contact with predators, and they don't always lead with that danger.  Some like to hypnotize you first.  Like the snake in Jungle book.  

Only shorter.  Much shorter.

In other news:

I'm going on a lunch date today with a new guy. 

Yes, i'm still out here dating.  Why not?  I can't be learning all these lessons and not putting them to good use.  And lets not forget, i have until the end of this year and after that i can honestly tell myself that i tried.  No regrets.  I'm dating out of my "norm", if i feel safe (hahaha) and the guy seems like someone i could share a future with, i will go out with him.  I'm expanding my horizons.  My qualification list is short and firm.  

After today i'm going to pause the dating app so i can go on vacation and not have to interact with it.  I was surprised, there are a lot of new men i haven't seen before, and i'm getting a lot of messages.  I'm pretty sure half are bots, but the point is........needle in a haystack mentality.  Patience, and open eyes.  


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