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Facebook detox

Facebook is not a friend to someone going through a breakup.  It is a torture device - that allows you to follow the very person you need to cut ties with until your backbone grows back.  Yes, you can "unfriend" them, but what about all the family and friends that are also attached to them?  Maybe i could roll along just fine, scrolling through and then BAM!  Theres a picture, or an event with him tagged that I didn't get to go to.........yeah, screw that noise.  Facebook is off limits to me for a while- maybe a long ass while.




GUILTY AS CHARGED


Maybe i'm a baby, or being immature but i don't think social media, where emotional time bombs lay ticking, is a good place for me to hang around.  Although it does make me feel very much out of the loop with everyone.....but my friends will always be reachable, with or without "the facebook" as i call it, just to make my daughter cringe.

Looks like blogging is my outlet now.  ya. hoo.   I have zero intention of correcting my grammar so anyone expecting that will be disappointed.  Writing does exercise the brain though and the brain is a good place to start.

Three things on my mind at the moment:

#1   My commute in to work is only 10 minutes more coming from the other side of the state.  BUT it's all highway and it takes me kind of out of the way in order to jump on the the next route.  I think tomorrow i'm going to try backroads for a more direct route.  When i say back roads, what i mean is pot hole city on narrow twisty long country roads.   I hate highways and my car hates pot holes.  We are going to have to compromise. I should have paid better attention so i would know, but - is highway driving better or worse for a vehicle?

#2   Future Thanksgivings have been ruined for me unless there is mole. 


If you do not know what Mexican Mole is, or you have not had it, go get you some. Immediately.  

#3  I miss him.  I miss our cats.  



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