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Affirmations

 Do you start your day off with all the things you don't want to do rolling in your head?  Starting with getting out of your cozy bed and onto the liar scale before you hit the shower you will then not want to get out of?

I don't do that anymore.

I wake up and get out of bed grateful that i'm needed somewhere.  Or on the weekend i wake up and think i can enjoy a leisurely coffee in the quiet before the day starts rolling.  I am sleepy.  I am warm and comfy but i get to come back to that later.

While i'm in the shower i tell myself how grateful i am for having a job i love going to, for a man i highly respect for an institution i can stand behind.

I get paid alright.

I have outstanding health benefits.

I sit in a beautiful office that i share with VIP.    I mean, i'm a little fancy.

I sometimes wonder when they are going to figure out they made a mistake hiring me.  Or when i'm going to hit the wall on how much more i can learn.

But then i remind myself of all the experiences over the years i have had, working with difficult people, some downright nasty.  I remind myself where i was not that long ago, and i know i have earned where i am now.  I deserve it.  And i do get it done......very well.

How we talk to ourselves is how the day is going to go, and how our days add up is how we view our lives.  I have a comfy bed i don't want to get out of.  I have a job i don't want to lose because i love it, and i have a life i love because of the people i share it with.

Whats to be negative about?

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