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Is it better with our girlfriends?

A few years ago I went on a weekend trip with my daughter, my grandaughter, my friend and her grandson. A takeaway from that trip was how easy it was.  It was a kid focused trip and everything got taken care of without any of us (the adults) having to ask for it to be done, or ask for help.  We just worked in synch- knowing what needed to happen next and doing it.  Together.  

We even found time to have adult beverages and conversations once the littles went to bed.

I've been on many trips with men during my lifetime with and without children.  I'm not saying i didn't enjoy those trips......just that they were very different and a lot more work for me.  

Yesterday I spent the day with one of my girlfriends who i don't get to see very often.  She planned the day and i met her at her house.  We took a long lovely ride through gorgeous parts of Connecticut.  We caught up on whats been going on in our lives while we salivated over homes that come from storybooks.  We got out of the car to take a little walk in Washington Depot Connecticut, to take some pictures of the Henry David Thoreau Bridge.


It was not a sunny day and quite "nippy" so we made it a fast stop just to see the bridge (I haven't before and she knew i would love it).  There are trails to walk and its a beautiful area.  I will be back.  She had made a dinner reservation for us so our next stop was the White Horse Country Pub located in New Preston Connecticut. She really was very thoughtful about this day.  

We sat at the bar and I had my very first Mint Julep because i wanted a bourbon based cocktail.  It was quite good.  Fireplaces, History, dark wood and beautiful water views.....and the FOOD.  This pub has a full and detailed menu with delicious food making it hard to choose.  I ended up with beef bourguignon pot pie. (No, i cannot pronounce it) that was so insanely good I cannot wait to go back and try the shepherds pie.    

We had a wonderfully relaxed meal talking about life, what we want from it and making plans for a girls getaway weekend.  I so love her.  I value the time we get to spend together....except when it involves a lot of walking because she is a BEAST. 

After such a lovely day I almost cancelled my plans to meet "J" at a pool hall for a drink and conversation.  I appreciated his willingness to post pone the time because i was not willing to rush my day with my girlfriend.  He was good natured and obviously interested in meeting me so, as much as i wanted to go home and hibernate, i met him.  I'm glad i did. He is very nice.  I would enjoy getting to know him. In the past this is where I would start wondering when where and if he would ask me to see me again.  As it is now, I'm standing back and letting any men i meet do the work.  If he wants to know me, he will figure out how to make it happen.

He did say he would like to see me again, HOWEVER, I made sure to keep my distance at the end of the night when he walked me to my car.  This was a meet up, not a date. This is the new improved me who loves myself and my life and while i want a man in it, not just any man. 

I feel good, and i'm glad to get back to work tomorrow after 2 weeks off.  I want to enjoy the way i feel right now, and make it last - remind myself how lucky i am to have the life i do, how far i've come (even if there is still a long way to go) and I'm proud of myself for making this life by filling it with good people.  Hey, i even gave birth to two of them!  

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