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Back to normal

 I needed a good nights sleep and an attitude re-adjustment.

Yes, i invested in this short term relationship, but not everything.  I held back.  Doing all this dating has actually taught me a few things. 

I think most women my age dated in their early 20's and learned these lessons early.  I'm not sure who had it better, me or them.

My recoup time from hurt feelings has shortened.  The reason, i believe, is because i did not sleep with this man.  I did not give myself fully or with abandon. Too bad for him, really.

So i've proven to myself that whatever the magic is that happens in my brain, is very much associated with love making.

Noted.

Last night i crashed out, fell asleep with all my clothes and lights on.  And i slept deep.  This morning i woke up and my first thought was "i guess he really hated my gift" and i started laughing out loud.

I will take that as a good sign.

I did think of him while i was away for the weekend, and i picked up the obligatory t-shirt (I heart Intercourse, PA) and some butchers salt from an Amish butcher, knowing he loves to cook.

Not a word of acknowledgement or even a polite thank you.  How rude.  Really though, bad manners turn me off.  Money doesn't buy class OR manners apparently.

I'm taking most of this weekend to myself.  It's been some time since i've done some art, read for hours, stared at a wall for a while....

My experience thus far with the Women in Motion program at work has been amazing.  I love my physical therapist and with only two visits I already feel the the release of pain in my hip.  Yesterday i saw a podiatrist who made me walk down the hall and then had me take x-rays because ........she believes one of my legs is longer than the other.  Slightly, yet enough to be causing all this clumsiness i've been living with my entire life.  So far, they have identified the EXACT spot that is causing me years of pain in my hip, and now this, with the leg length.

Imagine that i'm 57 and finally someone is helping me to move correctly.  It's never been about me being lazy....my pain has finally been validated and is on the way to correction. I am so ready to continue putting in the work to drop the weight and strengthen my body.  I love this feeling of being able to move with less pain.  Imagine, with none???

Even with all the eating i did last weekend, i lost another pound this week.  I call that success.  It's coming off slowly, and painlessly........the activity is the key.

This morning I feel outstanding.  Ready to take on the challenges that are ahead.  Let's do this. 

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