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 Saturday night Jen and Doug came over and early the next morning (sunday) we drove out to Caanan to pick up my entertainment center.  It turned out to be HUGE and solid wood, which is great, but also very heavy.  When we got it back to my place my neighbor, Kurt, had the unfortunate timing of leaving his apartment and seeing we were struggling.  He and Doug got it all into my apartment.

That was nice and neighborly.  I don't really talk to him but we smile and wave in passing.

while i was putting my stuff together to go spend the day with Marine man i put aside one of my baby spider plants to bring to Marine man.  He has huge windows in his place and two very large plants.  I wanted him to have one of my babies.....Bwaaaahahahahaha.  Baby plants!  I decided giving one to my neighbor to say thank you seemed appropriate as well since he randomly busted his gut to get my furniture in when he didn't have to.

Always say thank you, and give a token of thanks.  He has a lot of plants too so i thought he'd appreciate another.

Met Marine mans parents.  Yes i did.  We went to their house, and then we  took his mom out for lunch while his dad did his puzzle.  They are in their 80's.  She was trying to give me gifts from the raffle prizes she had won and i made the mistake of not accepting. oops.  So when we went out to lunch she insisted on buying my chocolates that were very tasty.  They are a generous family.

He told me she likes me.

The fact that that matters to him matters to me.  

It's a whirlwind.  But i'm not using rose colored glasses.  He has his ways, HIS ways, like all men (and women including myself) have when they've been single for a long time and have gotten used to doing things alone.  I had my first taste of his spontaneous bursts of anger to something i thought was a minor irritation.  Not at me, but at someone who almost his his truck when she was backing out and then had the nerve to stare at him for blaring his horn. 

He takes disrespect very seriously.  

Still learning a lot about each other - one being i have respect but i also will push limits because i don't know how NOT to.

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