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 What the hell am i buying?

Today after work my bestie and her husband are coming to pick up the deck swing i HAD TO HAVE and bring it to their new house, where they have the space and will probably use it.

(They also have the beautiful deck furniture i bought for the house in Wolcott about a year before i had to move out due to the breakup)

So i can visit it all.  And be reminded not to buy any more stuff.

In fairness, i wanted the deck swing for a long time.  Years.  I pictured myself lounging on my deck reading my book.  The reality is that it's not very comfortable to lounge on.  It's more of a sit and swing while you talk to someone and have a glass of wine or two.

I don't have people over very often.  Perhaps that should change......no probably not.

Anyways, I inherited a huge grill (and yes, i managed to set it up and use it all by myself after a few tries) and between the swing and the grill, something has to give.

I chose the grill.

And here we are.

I will use my big comfy camp chair that resides in the closet when i want to lounge on the deck and read my book.  It's more comfortable anyways.

I love sitting on decks.

I'm watchful for bears now, since the last one decided i was interesting and came right up to the deck.  Puts a little excitement into the lounging aspect.

I'm annoyed.  Mr. Batts seems to think i'm here for his entertainment, or he enjoys texting with me.  I have to admit, i'm not a big fan of the texting.  I'd rather date. See each other in person and get to know each other that way.  Texting is very flat, and my awkward sense of humor doesn't always come across correctly. Plus, it's one dimensional.  He's making me into what he wants in his head, not what i really am.  And vice versa I guess.

I'm just annoyed in general.  So this must be the perfect man if we are going by my ability to select a partner.

Sigh.  I'm wanting to cut him off but i have no real reason to do so, so i'm just going to go with the flow.  We are supposed to go out Thursday night.  He seemed to think it was last night.  I told him he is mixing up his ladies.....I mean, i know he's not dating just me for christ sake.  I'm wondering if its bad that i don't care.  

What happens happens.  I am tired of thinking about it. 

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