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Yesterday (Sunday) my plan was to smoke, and watch movies all day or just smoke and stare at the wall.  Not leave the house.  My friends left late morning and while i felt better when they were here, that quiet got me as soon as they left.  

A gentleman i'm communicating with on facebook dating sent me a picture of him leaning on his motorcycle asking me if i want to go for a ride......



Well, yeah. I do want to go for a ride.

I agreed to meet him for lunch, which turned into several hours, and we could decide if a ride was in the cards.  

It was.  He was a great lunch date and i enjoyed his company.  Not a lot of laughing, but the conversations was one of the best.  Deep questions, from HIM, great time.  Then we moved outside and stood around talking for another half hour.  Finally i asked him if we were going for a ride?  His face lit up like a sun and he asked me "you want to?".......i said "Do YOU?" and he said "YES"......THEN i laughed.  He seemed so surprised.  Was i giving a totally different vibe?  

We went for a nice ride, stopped a few times, once for a couple of drinks at a gas station, the second at a reservoir which had trails.  We took a nice stretch our legs walk, i took some pictures and he showed me so many pictures in his phone of nature pics he has taken.

Now it's getting dark, so we head back to the restaurant to get me to my car.  And proceed to talk MORE

Neither of us could shut up.  finally, we realized how late it was and hugged for the third time saying goodbye.  

Usually i'm annoyed when a man keeps stretching the time out ........but neither of us realized how much time had passed so quickly.  

He works very odd hours, at the whim of his company based on the work.....He's some kind of commercial plumber from what i understand. (we really didn't talk shop) Big contracts at schools, etc.  Does a lot of work on new structures.  Thats what i got.  Not an entire financial portfolio.

He also seemed impressed with what i do. We have a lot of the same views and he doesn't seem like a yes man to me.  Time will tell.

Yes, he is attractive.  VERY tall, slender, nice face.  He has hair, kept short.  facial hair, nice eyes. no tats. No obsession with an ex that i can tell, and no desire to rush into a relationship, but looking for one.  

But the ride..........omg did i need that so much.  He had a sissy bar on so while we were close, i didn't have to be all up on him.  He also grew up on dirtbikes and got his first harley at 18.  So i felt comfortable with him not being a newbie.  And i did let go and relax.  Like releasing steam from a pressure cooking.  After a few minutes on the bike i started to feel "that" feeling....a lightness, a giving over of all control (only riding the back of a bike can explain that to you) and a lift in my spirits...a joy.   ooooh yes, this was long overdue.

Anyhow.  We will see what happens from here.  Maybe he calls, or doesn't.  Was still an outstanding last minute date.

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