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Women give the best compliments

 i'm drowning in contract paperwork - trying to figure out what is going on and how to do this.  

I'm stressed.

It's new.  I'm unsure.  And i want it done. Now. Also, i have to wait on information from other people and i get impatient.  Most people have been so very helpful (and happy i'm doing it and not them) while others (the older ones) don't want to give up any information and are less than helpful.

There is a great divide.

BUT i have confidence that i will get through this and learn.  Which is what i wanted.  Because i'm an asshole. 

Just as i was about to go for a "clear my mind" walk around the building, a co-worker from another department came by to pick up some paperwork from me.  I love when she comes because we chit chat and we are friendly.  She is from Portugal and today she was telling me that her grandchildern call her by her name.  She wasn't ready to be a grandmother when the first arrived.

From there we went on to hair (she had her's dyed that reddish black that is gorgeous on her).  She told me how she wants my hair and i laughed and told her be careful, it's earned.  Blah blah blah, hair color, etc.....and then I told her how i used to love dying it different colors but i can't because white hair is a straw and even temporary colors are now permanent.  It's no fun.  So sometimes i use extensions for fun!

I told her I don't always want to look like grandma.  Her face was priceless.  She said "you NEVER look like someones grandmother!  You are gorgeous!  Your hair is stunning!"

Look, even if she was just being a very nice friend at work, that felt lovely.  I've come to the point in life where i can't rely on mens opinions of how i look because ......they are fickle.  They of course, compare women of my age to women who are much younger and call that attractive.

Women in their 20's and 30's are beautiful creatures, but a women in her 50's almost 60 isn't going to compare with smooth skin and tight muscles.  We are aging.  And that's a GOOD thing.  But many men, don't find older women attractive anymore.

Whatever.  When a woman compliments me it makes me feel good.  Women can be very harsh judges as well.  Saying nothing is kind sometimes.  

I just wanted to remember how for a few minutes today i felt gorgeous with my white hair and less tight skin......

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