WHAT the hell do i do with THIS

In therapy I'm learning that my thinking is filled with "stuck points" that may or may not be real.

One is "no one needs me"

Another is "I'm not important to anyone"

Keeping that in mind, when a man brings me flowers before he takes me out for a nice dinner and does not have expectations from me.....i don't know what to do with that.

When he sends me a text like this:

I don't know what to do with that.

This is the horrible part. I don't believe him. I think it's contrived, and he's setting me up to rip the carpet out from under me. A big joke on me that i would believe anyone could express THIS type of emotion regarding me.

Fucking bitch, yes, THAT i believe.

I want so bad to not have a negative reaction when a man says something nice, something loving, something very very (tooo) sweet........i should believe that a man can fall head over heals with me and believe that i'm the absolute BOMB......

But i can't.

I won't.

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